at the shrink

So I am going to councelling, to get over the 2 years I ruined when I was with Jaco.
I spent an hour talking about drugs and what Jaco used to do. The shrink wants to know all the details, I thought I could handle talking about it. By the end of the hour, I was sitting all tensed up and felt like I was going to pass out, just like a panic attact but not all the symptoms. Carmen (the councelor) was really cool asbout it. She got me a glass of water and spoke me out of it. If she hadnt done that, I dont think I would have made it home in 1 piece, but I'm ok now, I think.
When I got to my place (having had to go to mum's and pick up Josh, then drive home) I crashes out for an hours or so, with Josh right next to me. He is so cute, he was giggling in his sleep, and he reminded me why I keep fighting to be happy and get out of this depression. He means the world to me, and am so glad and greatful that I didnt lose him all those times before.